Hold On.

I miss your soft lips, I miss your white sheets
I miss the scratch of your unshaved face on my cheek
And this is so hard 'cuz I didn't see
That you were the love of my life and it kills me

I see your face in strangers on the street
I still say your name when I'm talking in my sleep
And in the limelight, I play it off fine
But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light

But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me
Young love murder, that is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed
Young love murder, that is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

I remember the time we jumped the fence when
The Stones were playing and we were too broke to get in
You held my hand and they made me crawl
I swear to God it was the best night of my life

Or when you took me across the world
We promised that this would last forever but now I see
It was my past life, a beautiful time
Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sunrise

Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sunrise

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me
Young love murder, that is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed
Young love murder, that is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

It was a past life, a beautiful time
Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sunrise

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me
Young love murder, that is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed
Young love murder, that is what this must be
I would give it all to not be sleeping alone
-The Harold Song by Ke$ha.

The last time I was in a relationship was with my ex.  We broke up 2 years ago in June.  The last time I saw him was almost 3 years ago.  And yes, it does get a lot easier.  Most days are really good.  I wake up and I'm pretty happy.  I get out of bed.  I shower.  I get dressed.  I go to my classes.  I work.  I have my stuff together.  But there are still days when I miss him.  I wonder what he's doing.  I wonder if he misses me.  I wonder if it tears him apart.  I wonder why we can't be together.  I miss him.

It's hard to get out of bed, let alone showered and dressed.  I skip class (this is rare).  I write letters to him that he'll never read.  It still hurts on these days as badly as it did the moment he said goodbye to me.  I have dreams about him some times.  I miss him.  I hate that I miss him.  But I hold on.  These are the days that turn into long nights, tossing and turning in my sleep.  My roommate has told me I talk about him sometimes.   But I hold on.

I get out of bed the next day and try to get the light back in my eyes.  I make sure that I don't stay broken, because these days are pretty rare.  My point is this, sometimes, life is really hard.  Some times, you want to fall apart and give up.  But don't, because it does get easier.  It doesn't always suck so bad.

Hold on.