Another Look at Depression.

I've been adjusting to college life, and I've been sleeping less. It reminded me of how I felt when I was depressed. 

I remember nights being the longest.  I remember just feeling frozen and cold, like I could never have enough sunlight.  I felt like I was living in the deep winter year round.  Each night, my goal was to make it to the morning.  Like the song said, if I could find daylight, I knew I'd be alright.  I knew it might be today, and it might not be tomorrow, but everyone was telling me to find a way out of my darkness, and I knew I would be okay, eventually.

As I gave my life to Christ, He helped me to thaw.  As the ice around my heart began to melt, I felt things I hadn't felt in years:  hope, love, peace, and joy, being the biggest.  I didn't know how to love.  I had been shown unspeakable cruelty by so many people. My heart had frozen, and I was angry and bitter.   But as I began to cry, and as I began to get out of the winter, I was shown just what love is.   It isn't selfish or cruel.   I learned that joy doesn't mean that it will always be sunny, but you won't always be frozen either.  I learned that I don't have to be afraid of sleep anymore.  I don't have to be anxious about anything, because God gives me peace.  I know that He is taking care of me.

God met me where I was and helped me to thaw.  He was my light in the dark.  And He can do that for you.