Greetings From Denver.

I'm on the way to Minnesota for school, but I'm stopped for about another 2 hours in Denver.  As I was flying from Burbank this morning, I was reading Psalm 124 and Psalm 125.  As I was flying over the Rockies, this song came on my iPod.

Here we go at it three years later
Will you help me to dream it all up again?
Tired of the same song everyone's singing
I'd rather be lost with you instead

Don't you come around here, come around here anymore
Dragging my fears, dragging my fears out the door

All I have, all I have, all I have, well you know it's yours
Every breathe, every step, every moment I'm looking for
All I have, all I have, all I have is yours
And you watch my heart break a little bit more
My heart break a little bit more, my heart break a little bit more

Is it cold yet in New York City?
'Round here the trees been blowing off bare
Everyone's talking about change on the airwaves
But I still got you on my breathe

Don't you come around here, come around here anymore
Dragging my fears, dragging my fears out the door

All I have, all I have, all I have, well you know it's yours
Every breathe, every step, every moment I'm looking for
All I have, all I have, all I have is yours
And you watch my heart break a little bit more
My heart break a little bit more

Lord, I'm still trying at this my hardest
So pick us all up from a fall
Rip a little corner off the darkness
Just to crack, the light in the middle of it all

All I have, all I have, all I have, well you know it's yours
Every breathe, every step, every moment I'm looking for
All I have, all I have, all I have is yours
And you watch my heart break a little bit more
My heart break a little bit more, my heart break a little bit more
Little bit more, little bit more, little bit more

I bought this CD the week I graduated high school.  My mentor, Michelle, would always play Mat Kearney for me when we would be doing 1-1's and hanging out.  His song, Trainwreck, was our song.  We listened to him as we drove through the mountains on my first mission trip in Arkansas.   I listened to the CD every time I was driving from Minnesota on my way to California when I moved out here 2 years ago.  I used to not be able to listen to it because I would get sad.  But this is the song that played as I'm making my way back.

I know I am not the same person I was when I left 2 years ago.  I am not the same person I was 2 days ago.  But as I'm leaving for school, which starts Monday, I have to remember that all I have is God's.  I never thought I would be going back to Minnesota because of the situation with my ex.  But I had to leave my fears at the door and just trust God.  He wouldn't have opened this door if He didn't want me to take it.

Psalm 124 says:
¹ If the LORD had not been on our side—
   let Israel say—
² if the LORD had not been on our side
   when people attacked us,
³ they would have swallowed us alive
   when their anger flared against us;
⁴ the flood would have engulfed us,
   the torrent would have swept over us,
⁵ the raging waters
   would have swept us away.
 ⁶ Praise be to the LORD,
   who has not let us be torn by their teeth.
⁷ We have escaped like a bird
   from the fowler’s snare;
the snare has been broken,
   and we have escaped.
⁸ Our help is in the name of the LORD,
   the Maker of heaven and earth.-NIV

Psalm 125:

 ¹ Those who trust in the LORD are like Mount Zion,
   which cannot be shaken but endures forever.
² As the mountains surround Jerusalem,
   so the LORD surrounds his people
   both now and forevermore.
 ³ The scepter of the wicked will not remain
   over the land allotted to the righteous,
for then the righteous might use
   their hands to do evil.
 ⁴ LORD, do good to those who are good,
   to those who are upright in heart.
⁵ But those who turn to crooked ways
   the LORD will banish with the evildoers.
   Peace be on Israel.

Lord, as I move into my dorm tonight, as I settle into the routine of classes, don't let me lose sight of why You sent me there.  Don't let me lose you.  All I have is Yours.  All of me.  I can't make it without you.